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forgot about buddyslim in the midst of exams (which ended more than a quarter of a year) and i gained weight again. its surprising how quickly it adds up when i dont keep track, when i dont watch my diet or weigh myself.. even though after exams while waiting for uni term to start i have been swimming, golfing and dancing regularly my food intake is clearly off track..

also returned to ballet after stopping for about 3 years (due to school, mostly) on the first lesson, having to wear my leotards and tights from 3 years back and comparing myself to the other students i realised how much weight i had put on since then. the excess baggage really weighed me down. for two weeks in a row my new ballet teacher has pressured me to lose weight. on one occassion he suggested directly that i should lose weight. on another (after i fell off pointe) he told the class dancers who are too heavy have problem with pointe, then asked for my weight. truth to be told, i never was good at pointework. class lasts 3 hours, and since pointework started after more than 2 and a half hours had passed i was quite worn out already. still, it doesnt take away the need for me to lose weight. SO glad i received a booster note which reminded me of buddyslim so here i am once again.

yesterday was a great day but today i overate again. sheesh. maybe its a form of self reward- time to look for a better alternative. i miss dancing so much but my gcse a level exams are just around the corner and all i can do is study eat sleep and occassionally sneak some tv in.. emancipation. cant wait for november.

ttook SAT 1 in june, and i only got a total of 1895 dissappointed. and my math score was 610!! can’t believe it, usually get an almost perfect score when i tried the SAT guide. the report says i did not attempt 10 math qns though i thought i did all of them. roar. i will take the test again after my a’s.

so right now all i need is discipline! to study. and to watch my diet. go me-you can do it!

today i had berry flavoured ice cream (new zealand natural 97% fat free frozen yoghurt to be exact)

and three cornflake cookies and a teeny weeny bite of chocolate chip cookie

other than that today was fine i guess, diet wise. radish, eggplant, apple, steamed fish,  3 tbsp of rice, chicken, half a slice of bread. i am feeling rather hungry at the moment but im going to sleep soon cos its 1am so im just gonna bear with the hunger for awhile, and hopefully when i wake up tomorrow i wont binge but instead start my day with a good salad!

and it really isn’t quite healthy that i havent been exercising much of late.. oh i really do miss dancing so so much! can’t wait for my end of year exams to be over before i can get my life back. its especially bad cos everyone around me is MUGGING, but the workload is such a huge pile that i never know where to start. and the stress is really getting to me.. and last night i felt all dizzy like my bed was spinning, and i was almost certain my head was about to split and that my dinner would all come up into the bin i strategically placed near my bed. fortunately i didnt puke. but the headache is persistent so im hoping it would go away by tomorrow- don want to be in school with a malfunctioning brain!

and the clock is ticking away! a few months more to prom..

but i am sure if we set our hearts to it we shall be able to accomplish what we want to achieve. so to everyone out there- hang on and keep up with the good job! =D soon we will let them see the slimmer us, better than ever before! yay!

i will show them who deserves to be prom queen. i will outshine all the finalists on that day. watch out cos the old me will be back.

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